Random

Hola! I am back from my blog slumber. A friend keeps on reminding me to write something soon. Maybe I enjoyed the holidays too much (though it wasn’t really hectic and I actually spent mine at work). Or I’m just not ready to blog about anything yet. Or I got lazy. (The last one seems most accurate).

But something happened today. I received an invitation to a farewell brunch from a close friend who stopped talking to me more than two months ago for some mysterious reason. I say mysterious because I didn’t exactly understand what happened and why all of a sudden she stopped responding to my messages. We even had lunch a week before and been texting everyday after that like we normally do. I’ve reached out several times and got no response except on two occasions when I greeted her on her birthday and she replied with “Thanks” and during the holidays when I got the almost meaningless, mandatory response “Thanks, Merry Christmas too”—responses you’d expect from an acquaintance. So getting the email this morning was a bit of shock. I’m conflicted in the sense that I want to say yes to the invitation but considering the current status of our friendship, I reckon it will be too awkward and going just because doesn’t cut it.

I get the idea that sometimes friends drift apart. I thought maybe I’m just too difficult to deal with. But it was too sudden like someone hit their head and got some form of amnesia or something. That’s life I guess. People change. Relationships end. I tried and nobody can tell me I didn’t. Maybe she has her reasons. I don’t know. I’m not saying the door is shut. I’m still hopeful for a resolution of some kind. Or at the very least, answers. I wish her well and genuinely hopes her the best in life. But like what I said in my previous post, I’ve learned that we shouldn’t force things. Some are meant to happen, some don’t. Some last, some don’t. You get the idea.

This post may seem like a downer but I’m human like everyone else. You know, ups and downs. I’ll make sure to change the tone in my next post. I promise. LOL.

B3W

No, this is not a post about meaningless resolutions. I mean, who does that seriously anyway? Not me, for sure.

2017 is coming to an end and I am excited to welcome the new year with a renewed hope and a positive outlook that life will work out for the better. This year has been full of challenges (and I will leave it at that). I wouldn’t say it’s the worst year. Just know that working away from home is not the easiest but I am grateful to have friends and family who are always there when you need them, always ready to assist in any way they can. A bit of faith helped too.

This year taught me a lot. But the one thing that I find most valuable is learning not to force things. Not everything you want, you get. Even if you tell me you worked your ass hard in getting something, one has to realize that these efforts are just a small part of a bigger, more complex equation. You can whine and complain all you want but there are more Xs and Ys that contribute to the end result. And the best you can do is to embrace whatever life gives you and try again (if you must) if it doesn’t give you a favorable outcome. Do not waste time contemplating on failures. Just learn to let go and move on. (Yes, exactly like that random quote you see in your Instagram feed…what flows, flows, what crashes, crashes.)

B3W